HOW AM I? I ASKED MYSELF.

Geylang with my wonderfull babes and guys.

National Day @ Marina

National Day Celebration @ CCK

Dania concert @ ECP

Movie Date/Birthday celebration with Diana and National Day Preview @ Marina with cousins

HEY!

Oh my, blogger has been dead for awhile. Since its like 8am in the morning and i can't sleep i shall give it an update. Well, this time, imma update a long post and loads of pictures. Recently, things have been ups and downs. Every single day i ask myself, "How am i?" Everyone has been caring and showering me with the love ever since the incident. Oh, i just love you guys. What a wonderful friends i have, thanks for being there for me. I appericate it loads and if you guys ever needed me, rest assured , ill be there for you as well. You people are like the sweetest people, i have met, getting me chocolates and setting aside time to spend with me to cheer me up. A special thanks to Joey, Maggie, Bayu, Keena, Atikah, Atiqqa, Shafiqah, Nazihah and to my three dearest people Azreen, Rafie and Renie. Also to everyone out there, thank you. I would be so lost without you guys. :) Everyone wants to see the old me again, the happy and cheerful one. I'll try. But recently i get so depressed and stress, i easily flare up. I've fallen into deep, im crawling to get out. At times, i just need my own space. I want to lie in the middle of a field full of greenary and just stare at the skies and watch the clouds go by. I want to dip my feets in too the wet sands and watch the waves hit me, let my problems be gone with the wind. I guessed if i asked myself the question, i would say im doing better, moving on, slowly picking up the broken pieces of my heart using my bare hands it's bleeding but i have to pick them somehow no matter how much it hurts. I just want to enjoy every moment and cherish what i have right now. Everything happened for a reason perhaps it was a crush to you and nothing more but yet it felt surreal to me. All those things you said to me i wondered if you meant them when you told me. But it all over now, i dont know why you were important to me. I guessed, ill let go of you, finger by finger like how i used to hold your hands. Then at my lowest point, someone came out of the blue, like god didnt like me being sad. This girl, the most patience girl i've met. She took time to understand how i feel. She knows at times, i'd think about you. When i look at her is like im looking at myself when i was happy and cheerful, always smiling. She the girl who hold her ice cream cone using two hands, the one rushed to me the moment she saw me and gave me a hug telling me she misses me. I just find that adorable. Every little things she do is just so adorable just like a little kid. Well, thats all i have about my life, Other than that its been pretty fun with all the happening things going on. I dont remember them but the pictures will do the best of the best explaination. I dont know when i'll update again but yeah i will somehow. And have a very happy fasting month to all the muslims out there, endure then we'll celebrate hari raya in no time. I want to make kuih and the brownie but too busy with work. Thats all people do take care. :)

Posted on 20 August 2010, 9.30am.