IM LOST WITHOUT YOU. :(

Today was suppose to be a happy day for us. But it didnt happen that way.

This post is dedicated to her.

I dont want you to leave me. All i want it you. When you left me my whole just crumble down, its like my colours you painted have wear off. My sunshine has been taken away, my happiness is gone. When you told me that you're leaving, it was like so sudden my heart was in a state of shocked. I went into a state of confusion. All i want to do is make you come back. I know im with flaws no one is perfect, we all have to move on. Why not give us a chance, we both can be happy together theres no need to pretend. I never force nor want to stress you. When you said it was us to be this way, then be it. I'll just be contented to be with you. I'll wait no matter, what happens, we will be there for each other. I know at times i act immature but all i every wanted was your attention, i maybe clingy cause i cant get enough of you. When we started out four weeks ago, never once i was bored of you, all i wanted was to see you every single opportunity i get. Every single day, you're the one who makes me smile, who gave me the butterflies in my stomach everytime we are about to meet. I rushed down after you told me that, cause i wanted to see you. I kept waiting but never got to meet you. I went back with a heavy heart. Then i thought i saw someone looking like you i ran across the field just to found out it was not you. I sat at the library, looking at our pictures and old text messages. We were happy, why did you have to end the happiness? I sat in the library, tried to control myself but the tears just drop by themselves. I was like a lost kid without its mother, i kept walking in circles. I've lost my sense of direction when i lost you. A dear friend came down, i went to marina, in the train i keep think about our train rides together, where we would take from woodlands, alight at city hall and to tanah merah. She just followed without saying a single word. At marina, I sat at the spot where we sat, the first time we held hands and shared hugs. Thinking how much i miss you, the times i spent with you. Tears just stream down, that was the first time i cried infront of a friend. She told me let it all out and just keep wiping my tears and said "You really love her". Went to marina square i traced back our steps, the first time we watched movie, Day and Knight, the tickets still in my wallet. Remember we went Burger king to have lunch, went to the helix bridge. Then i looked at my hands, it no longer have the milky smell of yours. All these things i just cant forget about it. I didnt want this to happen, can we be like before? I'll try to be everything and anything you want. For you, i know you're worth it. Even it just baby steps i'll take the chances. All i ever wanted was you and not to lose you. I wont make you upset, mad nor irritated anymore. All we need is just time. I just want you back. Please, baby i know you still love me. I'll love you like i always had.

I LOVE YOU MIRA.

Posted 23 July 2010, 10pm.