I'M NOT AFRAID TO TAKE A STAND!

wassup?!

next week is the last week of school till the holidays! shout hell yeah! last week at the old clementi campus and holla to the new chua chu kang campus! how's life? School been fine for me so far or so i think. Hoped i scored all A's for my CA! While everyone thinks im fine on the outside but no one undertand the feelings i have inside me cause i faked a smile. It hurt so much, its killing. It's getting way complicated than before. You took me for granted thinking i could take all of it. But i just can't its too much for me to handle. You made promises to me and yourself but are you keeping it? Yeah, words cant keep it real. I've tried ways and means to adapt to you but i just cant. I was being patience, hoping, hopefully you realised your mistakes but i guessed that made you think that i was fine with it. So when i can't take it anymore i just bombared you. I know it came down on you hard. But face it, its the truth, when your in the wrong, you never give in and it me always eating the humble pie. You said you're tired, try putting yourself in my shoes. If only you could that you made you realise what you did. Im not blaming you, but i just want to see an effort if not for me then for yourself. When you told me you loved me but you never show it. You said im doing lips service, what about you. Perhaps the way we show love to each other is not the way we both want. I said those things so that you feel it, i choose to be the bad guy to tell you the truth. I dont like lying to myself nor you, it aint easy faking a smile always. At times, i was happy just being with you and wished you stayed that way. I need to put my life back on track, the one where i was truely happy. Say whatever you want, cause you have the rights to. I have been through things that you never. I may seem heartless and you may say that i dont care about you but its for your own good. While you werent there when i needed you, whenever we argued, there was this girl who kept me strong, who told me not to give up on you. She was willing to give me up but she just kept waiting. No two person is the same but it those little things she did for me, she made me feel that im important to her, if only you were like her. Well thats all i got for the update, gotta get ready for work.

I'm not afraid to take a stand.

Posted on 6 June 2010, 1.48pm.